Pause

9:22 PM Watching a series on my tablet as I write documents for submission, I contemplate what will happen several months from now. Will I still be here? Will it still be the same routine? Waking up and going through the motions is just so mechanical. I'm actually really happy because of the break and it feels like somehow I got to recalibrate a little. 

 It feels like I'm running after something I just can't envision. 

A sign. That's what I need.