10:25 PM I listen to the droning washing machine and swishing of the electric fan. I've nothing but electronic stuff around me right now. The TV remote control on my left, my phone on the right, a smartwatch on my wrist and right now I'm typing away on my laptop. 

I've just turned off the TV. The sounds are actually pretty mundane. I've gotten so used to them as company for dinner or every so often all-nighters when I need to rush documents, layouts, codes or even games. White noise as some may refer to it. 

Noise. 

Everyday routine seems to suck the zest I once had. I need to distract myself. 

Lord, is this my ceiling?

11:53 PM I've just remembered, I've wanted to post here today. Yet, I was caught up in podcasts, online games, creating art and updating online social media accounts.

I like how productive that day had indeed ended.

Lord, I pray for more days such as this. May there be happier ones in the future too. 

9:55 PM Just finished a game. At the end of it, one would either see a blue crystal emblazoned with the word victory or a red one with the word defeat. If you've played so many games as I have, you would know the familiar voice that announces the conclusion of each game.

After each game, what do you usually do? Do you assess what you've done right or what you need to improve on or you just hastily click play again?

Playing games is definitely fun and allows me to take some stress off my system. I like to believe I learn a bit from it every time it concludes.

Lord, may I learn lessons from the tasks and activities of everyday.

8:40 PM How many times do you need to talk to someone before they're no longer a stranger? Once? Twice? Maybe a bit more than that I guess. But then, when will you eventually call them an acquaintance, a peer, a colleague or even a friend?

First impressions allows us to form initial perceptions of an individual. As of today, I was not impressed with what I witnessed.

Lord, allow me to have a discerning spirit in all areas of my work and everyday living. 

8:08 PM ...and so a new term starts. It does not have the usual hype of being around for the first day. Maybe everyone has gotten used to new beginnings by now or maybe because the delay caused the hype to run out. Whatever the case, what is apparent is those that I've met today seemed all too drained.

We strive for outputs... for perfection.. for productivity. However, have we forgotten that we are but humans and not machines? Have we forgotten that we get tired and may even need rest?

My question is... how do we even begin when we're low on fuel and do not even know or haven't even felt that the previous term had ended.

Dear God, please grant me rest for my soul and body is tired and weary.

11:54 AM I woke up late today. The next door neighbors were playing music a bit too loud last night. Apparently, the number of people residing next door is increasing and with that came the increase in decibel level. I want to understand them, their situation and their way of living for their arrival has recently meant an increase in the stress and anxiety levels in this household.

I know there are only certain things that I can control in this life. The one variable that I have most control of is myself and how I perceive things.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference.

9:13 AM In my head, I can hear music playing. It goes...

Slow down you crazy child you're so ambitious for a juvenile... but then if you're smart tell me why are still so afraid? 

In my head, sometimes I can't hear myself think. I'd like to do a lot of things--to make great accomplishment from plans and dreams all pending. Sometimes, the clamor is so loud that not realizing it, I go through the motions of everyday living and later on simply notice that the day is done.

I cry sometimes. I am human still.

Lord, direct me. 

10:47 PM Today was that subdued cool and rainy weather. I like it. This type of weather makes me think and gives me that relaxed vibe.

In the afternoon, we were able to go to this new food joint and tasted lots of items from their menu. I loved the Market Salad and the Chicken Parmigiano. I love them and will definitely go back to that place!

My ride home felt like life was slowly tuning down the noise of the busy work day. Clearing my mind, I wanted to read again to keep soul and spirit fed.

Lord, thank you for letting me start reading your word again. Also, thank you for the rain and the lovely weather. 

9:09 PM The day's almost done. From morning until sundown, today's activities followed one single theme: waiting.

Waiting for the time to get ready to go to school... Waiting for the drawing test to finish... waiting for the next one in line for the verifying items on a checklist... Waiting... Just waiting...

By the time Monday comes, I would still be sitting in that familiar corner... waiting... still waiting...

Lord, grant me patience especially in the days to come. Also, thank you for making this day a cheery one amidst all the waiting. 

It's the second day of December. All you hear is the ruffling plastic bags and containers being opened to get the holiday decorations out. The apartment is just along the road and so at intervals you hear honking cars, noises of the traveling jeepneys and the low rumbling of buses passing by. There are also the people. There's an assortment of voices calling onto each other. Some are high pitched and giggly, others in deep serious tones and all else in between. I guess this is the start of the Christmas rush. I'm guessing at least most of the people are excited, and all smiles.

Then, I hear myself typing away here. I sit in silence. I pause and sigh. Christmas~~

Are were entitled to a wish on Christmas? Or is that only for one's birthday.  I don't really remember. All I see now are just the blinking lights casting dancing shadows on the wall. 

How should we celebrate Christmas, Lord?

A mind in great disarray. That simply makes everything seem to relate to everything else. There's the jumble of content stored pell-mell in the a place in the cloud that I would like to keep in order. First, I would need to get all the non-beneficial, less significant content out of my current listing.

With each "return to draft" button clicked, a wave of relief overcomes me. I'm getting several steps closer getting things done~~ to making sense of this part of my piece of the cloud. I guess this is a good beginning.

Lord, let this be a new beginning. Let this opportunity allow me to clear my mind as well as a means of getting my thoughts in order. Help me see this through.