8:30 AM My head is throbbing. I woke up with that feeling that the world around me was moving in circles. Maybe it was lack of sleep. Maybe I needed to rest. Maybe I'm thinking too much. 

As for now, I guess I'm going back to sleep. Usually, when I wake up from it, I'd feel better. Hopefully, this time it works too.

12:56 PM I feel a lot better but still a bit groggy. I'll put off work to maybe tonight. At least by then I'd have gotten a bit of a break.

 7:14 PM It's a holiday today. There's no work and there's a storm. It's good that the most that we had were slightly rainy and cloudy weather. On the news, it said that it's the strongest typhoon in the world for this year. 

As for me, well, here I am. Trying. 

I'm still trying to work out the most efficient way of fixing up my room and things. I actually want to buy new opaque white curtains and put the others in the wash. It's been so long since the curtains had a good washing. I have artworks to finish and to hang on my walls. I have a lot of unfinished work. But maybe the top priority should be me trying to look for myself in the heap of this never-ending to-do list. 

10:35 PM My head hurts a little. I guess it's from being in front of a gadget screen most of the time today. I've been wearing glasses. I hope that helps. Or maybe I'm just tired. Nothing really makes much sense right now. I hope tomorrow will be better. At least, hopefully, I'll be nearer to finding myself. 

If you find me, even just a glimpse of myself among this chaos, please let me know.

 10:55 AM It's been months since the pandemic broke out and derailed so many plans for this year. Trips were canceled. The school's gone online.  Everything else is just a blur. 

Plans? Do I really have those in my life right now? I am just so lost. A lot of my friends and family would say that at least I earn something for a living. Don't get me wrong. I am thankful for that. It's just that... I'm no longer happy. 

Was it because I no longer get to meet people? Was it because I rarely go out? Was it because I've been doing routine things? I am uncertain. 

Maybe, in the midst of the lull brought about by accomplishing mainly online and at home, I'd eventually find my way.