9:01 PM So what's with the numbers? I guess, one way or another, what we choose to do with our lives becomes part of some study or statistic somewhere. 

For some, that which we see with our own eyes and experience with all our other senses can never be simplified or presented in an arbitrary table. The reports are devoid of the stories and the emotions. The papers are lifeless but straightforward. I guess for some, that's a way by which life gets simplified. 

A simplified life of black and white, of right and wrong, and of ups and downs. Maybe that's how fate works. In retrospect, that's how weaving works. Aren't the fates weavers?

It's interesting that amidst having met so many in this lifetime, everyday living has become mundane and jaded. 

Maybe tomorrow will be better. Here's to hoping.

 10:18 PM Random items are on my desk. I guess I've just been too preoccupied to put things in order these past few days. I have a designated spot for each one but working on it at this very moment does not seem too enticing. 

There are days when our energies are up and we face the day head-on with determination to check off all the things in our to-do lists. But, there are also days, when we're barely able to tick off one. It's daunting. Overwhelmed by the work and everything else in between, we sometimes just need to pause. 

To breathe. To take it all in. And to re-evaluate. 

We might never get to finish everything all at once but remember that we'll eventually do enough. The trick is to be mindful of ourselves. 

Rest a while. A quick refresh will do wonders. 

 7:57 PM Everything's more or less done. Sure, there is still a lot on the to-do list but so far the day has been a productive one. Got the major tasks done with a bit of room for improvement. 

Tomorrow's going to be yet another day to wake up and go through the day's motions. It's interesting to see that with the little improvements made before up until now, seemingly challenging tasks have become run-of-the-mill ones. 

I've yet to find the next mountain to conquer. At least for now and for several tomorrows, art would start to take center stage. 

11:53 PM Some days seem to just go on. It feels like it takes longer to finish than others. Today is one such day. 

The sun set early and walking along the pavement and the streets took a while. Streetlights and shops already had their lights on. Good thing it wasn't raining. It would've been more challenging to travel. 

Somehow the walk was soothing though. It kept me from thinking so much about what to plan next. I wasn't going fast nor was I catching my breath but my pace was steady and my steps were deliberate.

Everything was familiar. The scent. The sounds. The transition of lights as I pass by each building, shop, and house. It's okay. This is okay. I am okay. 

 7:14 PM It's a holiday today. There's no work and there's a storm. It's good that the most that we had were slightly rainy and cloudy weather. On the news, it said that it's the strongest typhoon in the world for this year. 

As for me, well, here I am. Trying. 

I'm still trying to work out the most efficient way of fixing up my room and things. I actually want to buy new opaque white curtains and put the others in the wash. It's been so long since the curtains had a good washing. I have artworks to finish and to hang on my walls. I have a lot of unfinished work. But maybe the top priority should be me trying to look for myself in the heap of this never-ending to-do list. 

10:35 PM My head hurts a little. I guess it's from being in front of a gadget screen most of the time today. I've been wearing glasses. I hope that helps. Or maybe I'm just tired. Nothing really makes much sense right now. I hope tomorrow will be better. At least, hopefully, I'll be nearer to finding myself. 

If you find me, even just a glimpse of myself among this chaos, please let me know.

9:17 PM This is the first week that I'd get to conduct formal classes and lectures. So far, so good. I am enjoying my schedule this semester and hope that the kids will enjoy it too.

I've prepared and identified a breakdown of what topics we will be covering throughout the semester and I hope we'd be able to follow through on them all.

Lord, may you grant a mixture of fun with all the learning we'll be having in all the classes for this semester.

10:20 PM I received an assortment of gifts a while back. Maybe things are finally looking up. I guess my days aren't so bad after all. I enjoyed flipping through the character reference book.

I was a bit down lately but then things got a bit better. Maybe... just maybe... tomorrow will be a sunny day too.

Lord, thank you for all the blessings. 

9:55 PM Just finished a game. At the end of it, one would either see a blue crystal emblazoned with the word victory or a red one with the word defeat. If you've played so many games as I have, you would know the familiar voice that announces the conclusion of each game.

After each game, what do you usually do? Do you assess what you've done right or what you need to improve on or you just hastily click play again?

Playing games is definitely fun and allows me to take some stress off my system. I like to believe I learn a bit from it every time it concludes.

Lord, may I learn lessons from the tasks and activities of everyday.

9:08 PM There's this familiar app most of you probably already know that was shown to me today. It was installed on a smartphone. Swiping right means you like the person in the picture and swiping left means you're not interested. If by chance both of you swiped right, you'd be able to talk to each other. Interesting concept. I also found it superficial.

I believe connections should me more than just that. I mean... It's rare to have people upload images without filters nowadays so I guess the app is just used for passing time and talking to random strangers. Their stories may be interesting or unique but one can never truly say its a hundred percent real. Maybe, there are those who made lasting connections there but I prefer talking to someone in person. That's just me.

Lord, in this world where communication is done with ease, help me make real, lasting and positive connections with the people around me. 

9:33 PM ‘Twas a busy day indeed! There were a lot of people everywhere and they were just there waiting. The line had meandered through the fourth floor with no one able to tell where it ends. None can determine whether the loitering crowd was just there to marvel or disdain at the length of the line.

And so the day progressed… one number called… and then the next… and then the next… until no one answered to the last number called. One looks up. The sun has already set and there are just empty seats.

Lord, thank you for the patience and the cheery nature that you have showered us with today. May tomorrow be even more productive and cheerful as today.

7:43 AM I woke up earlier than I had expected. Maybe because I've spent the bulk of the 2-day holiday sleeping in and just being around not really getting into a major project or any of that sort. It's chilly today. Rain is in the weather forecast.

I whisper to myself, "It's okay."

I got out of bed and made my way downstairs to have breakfast of biscuits and coffee.

8:57 PM I got my laptop setup in its usual spot in my bedroom. The day as a whole seemed a little dreary for my taste. The weather just couldn't make up its mind.  It didn't rain but the sun hid itself behind the clouds. It was cold.

It feels like I am reaching for something that's just a little bit out of my range. I do hope tomorrow will be better.

Lord, I feel like today is just one of those days that seems to force one to take it easy. Thank you for transactions made easy. Also, may the days ahead be cheery.  

A mind in great disarray. That simply makes everything seem to relate to everything else. There's the jumble of content stored pell-mell in the a place in the cloud that I would like to keep in order. First, I would need to get all the non-beneficial, less significant content out of my current listing.

With each "return to draft" button clicked, a wave of relief overcomes me. I'm getting several steps closer getting things done~~ to making sense of this part of my piece of the cloud. I guess this is a good beginning.

Lord, let this be a new beginning. Let this opportunity allow me to clear my mind as well as a means of getting my thoughts in order. Help me see this through.